Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Do You Know Crabby?

I've been feeling crabby lately. How about you?
Feeling crabby, for me, usually means there's been a shortage of letting feelings out. A couple of days ago I spent some time in a place that does not hold good memories for me: the local emergency room.
I wasn't there for myself; lucky me. However, it is a place I associate with two terrible events in my life. It's the emergency room where I saw my father alive for the last time, and it's the place I brought my mother when she was hurting one night. She laid in a room for over two hours before she was admitted to the hospital. She was then released about a week later because her doctor could do nothing more for her.
I'm sure this emergency room holds plenty of frightening memories for many local residents and even for the people who work there, I can't imagine they become inured to the harsh realities of living and dying.
So, yes, I've been crabby and distracted and feeling a little lonesome for loved ones I still love and miss. Perhaps it's time for a good cry and then some therapeutic art.
Maybe it's even time to write, which has been cathartic in the past. We shall see.
Can you tell where I went on Sunday? There it is: Haystack Rock at Cannon Beach.

3 comments:

JEN said...

JEANNE-WEENIE-LINGUINI----I LOVE READING YOUR BLOG. EVERYTIME I RUN THROUGH YOUR PICTURES, MY HEART ALWAYS JUMPS WHEN I SEE MAMA. I CAN LOOK INTO HER FACE AND SEE AND FEEL JUST HOW MUCH SHE LOVED ALL OF US. I MISS HER TOO!!! WHAT DID ANY OF US EVER DO TO DESERVE HER AND DADDY?? I WISH WE COULD GO BACK IN TIME FOR JUST 1 DAY.
LOVE YOU LOTS!! MS. SMURFY-MURPHY

Nancy Nixon said...

Hi Jeanne,
From one of your "Italy Group". Good to hear from you and know that you have this blog. It looks great and seems to be a wonderful way to stay connected. As you may or may not remember, I spent much of my life working in Emergency Rooms. It's a stressful place for both patients and staff. Hosptial ER's have "evolved" to represent much of what is wrong with health care in this country. For many, it is the only place where they can recieve health care.........and so it becomes over crowded and under staffed....not a place you want to go in a real emergency. I'm sorry you have had bad experiences in that venue. Hopefully, you won't have to go to another one............ever! I am fine. Staying busy with my private practice. I just returned from New Zealand. It's a beautiful country with friendly people. Take care and thanks for putting this blog up and contacting me.
Aloha,
Nancy Nixon

John said...

Jeanne-girl. It would be nice if you wrote a story about my favorite Aunt and Uncle(aka your parents). It might be good for your soul..! Actually, it would be good for all of our souls..!!!

Yes, ERs are scary places. They're overcrowded and the staff are overworked. But where else should we take our loved ones when they're ill? You did all that you could for your parents and they truely appreciated it. That thought should be foremost in your memory.

Can we have that story now? [sniff]